Examfever

So there's this bug going around on campus that cause exam fever...
mmmm not something i want, cause its wintertime and I had my fair share of bugs for this winter.
I mean I started the flu season even before the winter came...
So why would I want to get another bug..?

Now you see the problem with that bug is that unlike the flu or any other bugs there are treatments out there that you can use to control the symptoms but with this idiocy of a illness (yes its an illness) is that there are no medicines out there..

The symptoms of the illness is different with everyone, but my problem is not exam fever coz I haven't caught it (even though I'm almost done with the exam). Though  I think I am immune to it seeing that I have never had it in my life..  See my problem with examfever is that it had struck my fellow studymates, they stress and go on about how they prepare and stuff and that's really irritating coz I think I am prepared for the exam and then they start talking about the stuff they learnt the previous day and I just start to lose my confidence.. I go to an exam with confidence that way I dont stress and forget what I learned throughout the year. Now when these fellow students (who I would love to call some Afrikaans words that's not appropriate and refers to a woman's vagina) start with their blabbering I start stressing causing me to panic causing me to forget which will eventually lead me to failure..

 See sometimes I do try to study...

but the thing with that is I fall asleep quickly.

During my school years I was a little leech going around the hostel during exam time talking to my friends about the subject and what we have to know for the exam them teaching me the things I need to know.. (but I kinda always got in trouble with our housemother coz we were spose to sit and study in our rooms)

Then the morning before we write I would go around asking them question to help them remember better, but I was actually helping myself..

Then one sweet day we were writing Life Science (better known as biology) and  as usual I got up to my tricks the day before the exam. But while sitting there writing my brain decided to pull a fast one on me and I could not remember a single thing... all I could remember was the things my friends said about everything except what was in the exam.. I could remember the things they said were wrong but unfortunately it was not a true false questionnaire..... Then today i had a flash of deja vu as I sat there reading through my radio exam paper. But what made this different was that i could have told you exactly what day our lecturer was discussing it and what she was wearing and all that jazz but i could not get the answer I needed to write off the tip of my head.

So now I drawed the conclusion that I really should not be discussing the work before the exams....

And Studying is not a good idea...

Tot later...

So i Have this really cool friend who emails me the most awesome stuff.. well its not that awesome.. And even though I dont know him that well, or he me for that matter he always has that nick to know when i need to be cheered up... or maybe he doesnt know and its just good timing on his side.. but whatever way hes emails always comes at the right time.

So i was kinda going through an emotional rollercoaster this past three weeks stuff were happening that really made me question my life (is still happening i might add) but ill tell all about that later.. promise as for now this is an email my friend send me last week..  tha babies are just the most cutest thing ever... Thanx Colin..

Anger is a condition in which
The tongue works faster than the mind.

You can't change the past,
but you can ruin the present
By worrying over the future
Love...and you shall be loved.
GOD always gives HIS best to those
who leave the choice with HIM.
All people smile in the same language.
Everyone needs to be loved...
especially when they do not deserve it.
The real measure of a man's wealth
is what he has invested in eternity.
Laughter is God's sunshine.
Everyone has beauty
but not everyone sees it.
It's important for parents to live
the same things they teach.
Thank GOD for what you have,
TRUST GOD for what you need.
If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterdayand the worries of tomorrow,
you have no today to be thankful for.
Man looks at outward appearance
but the Lord looks within.

The choice you make today
will usually affect tomorrow.
Take time to laugh, for it is
the music of the soul.
   Patience is the ability to idle your motor
when you feel like stripping your gears.
Love is strengthened by working
through conflicts together.
Harsh words break no bones
but they do break hearts.

To get out of a difficulty,
one usually must go through it.
We take for granted the things
that we should be giving thanks for.
Love is the only thing that can be
divided without being diminished.
 Happiness is enhanced by others
but does not depend upon others. 
For every minute you are angry with someone,
you lose 60 seconds of happiness
that you can never get back.

Do what you can, for who you can,
With what you have, and where you are.

Still hearting life...

Bittersweet..

Fergie said once upon a time that 'big girls don't cry'
i recently found out that that's true...
No matter how much you want to cry and just break down there is this part of you who just don't want to let loose and cry your heart out... Even when i am actually crying there's this part of me that still holds back, preventing me from breaking free and sobbing my heart out. I wonder what triggered that??
Is it the urge not to be pitied by people coz that is one thing i hate, people feeling sorry for me...
And people telling you everything will get better when your world has crushed, seriously don't they know that you do know that but you just want to let out some of the pain you are feeling inside... And then worst of all - 'i know what you are going through'.. Seriously no one knows what i am feeling.
People are so irritating when you just want to mourn something, they are all up in your business...  so when we say Big girls don't cry we mean big girls don't cry where people can see.
They just don't like everybody being up in their business...


Tot later...

The lost ones

I now know u are really gone....

I call but you dont pick up your phone...

I sms but no one replies....

You never on mxit anymore...

Your facebook wall is full off messages from people who are missing you...

They all lost you on saturday..

But i lost you more than three years ago...

I am not suppose to be sad, coz you were no longer a part of my life..

I am not suppose to cry because we already said goodbye...

But why does it feel like someone punched a hole in my heart???

Y do i find it hard to breathe??

Y do i wake up in the middle of the night with tears in my eyes???

Is it because i think you were to young to die???

Or maybe because i thought the world hass so much more to offer to you???

Or maybe its because i am selfish....

Wanting to keep you here cause where else would i find another friend as wonderful as you?????

My life feels empty without you...
But knowing you i know you would have told me to get over it and go buy a dop...

So heres a toast to you.