Friday, September 30, 2011

You are not born to live a long life. You are not born to succeed. You are born to go through puberty, reproduce, and die.

 ‘You are not born to live a long life. You are not born to succeed. You are born to go through puberty, reproduce, and die.’ is the words Mr. Julien Smit published on his blog last week< http://inoveryourhead.net/ >
 
This got me thinking and I have to agree with him.
The life we humans made for ourselves and the things we do. The rules we bring upon ourselves. Is that truly what our lives are about??

At this moment most peoples lifes are about climbing the corporative leader working hard to make buckets full of money. But what is that for?

Who is getting our hard earned money to spent. We save and work and work and never really enjoy the money we work so hard for.

Yeah sure we buy nice houses for us, but when do we enjoy it? We come home late at night,r un through a shower and then fall into bed. only to be waken in a few hours by the alarm to run to work again.

Cars… we buy flash fast cars, but the only things we use them for is to sit in traffic and we cant even go over the speed of 20 km per hour.

We buy the most expensive most nutrisious foods, but we gulp them down in a hurry.


Then when we retire and think it’s time to enjoy the fruits of our labour we go to an expensive retire village with all the things money can buy. but we are too old to truly enjoy the joys that those things can bring us.

Since I can remember my dream in live was to be a surburban housewive with ten children, just living life as it comes. A husband who has a job that provides food and clothes for us all and that keeps the loansharks off our backs. Holiday timeis bonding time not jetting off to some exotic place.
Isn’t that more what life is about??

Angel vs. Devil

A few weeks ago I told yawl about my, shall I dare to say hatred for the beggars of the Cape Town streets.
The thing I realized these last few weeks is that they are not all like that, you get those who are a complete and utter pain in the arse, but then you get those who you can’t believe are on street and whom you wish you could help in a bigger sense than just giving them some change.
A few nights back I ran into this girl I saw earlier this year and my heart just broke looking at her.
Here’s the story of how we met…
As I was walking home one windy winter evening a young lady stopped me to ask for a one rand. The clothes on her body was dirty but one could see that they were of good quality and being brand names must have cost a pretty penny. 
Obviously being the skeptic that I am my first thought was that she wanted the money to make the ‘bod’ full for her next ‘bombie’. As the wind blew her sent in my direction the smell of alcohol was nowhere to be found and that made me look at her with a whole new perspective.
The first thought that crossed my mind was that she was definitely not looking for money for a ‘bompie’ coz if she was a ‘bompie’- drinker the smell would still have been there coz that smell stays with you for days.
When I took a better look at her I saw she was pregnant, probably five or six months…
Of course, that made me reach for my purse quicker than it takes the venom of a cobra to run through your blood.
Then I realized that I only have like fifty sent on me and the poor women’s lips were so dry that I knew a fifty sent would not really help her. She was content to taking that and buy herself some cheap chips, which I doubt that she would have been able to afford with a fifty sent, I mean they don’t sell anything for fifty sent anymore- where are the good old days???
So trying to be the good person that I am not, I decided to offer her my dinner of chicken and fries, which was hard for me to do coz I was as hungry as a Khalahari lion. In the end the angel in me won the  fight with the devil. The sad part of that was it made me feel bad coz I could not help her more..
Then just as I was giving the food the devil in me won the other fight and I told her: “Well I’m giving you my food now, so you should also give me something” the look on her face was priceless, but luckily I did not want much just wanted to know how a beggar can wear real carvella shoes and levi jeans, though they were dirty they were still expensive and one could see it wasn't knock-off's.
Ag shame I should not have said that coz then the girl cried and told me her story: “ I am 18 years old and finished high school last year. My family lives in Plattekloof and they are well I would say rich. When my daddy found out that I was preggies he kicked me out. when i went to my boyfriend for help,he decided that he wants nothing to do with me or our child. According to him he could not even be sure it’s his child. So now I am roaming the streets hoping to find a place where I can rest my head at night. These other bergies told me about this shelter in Gardens, but I can’t seem to find it. Guess I’ll just have to keep looking. Thanks for the food, you are an angel.”
That almost had me in tears someone actually though of me as an angel, I don’t get that much. But what stayed with me was the cruelty of her parents, how can anyone be so cruel to your own child?
So a few nights ago I went to spar with my friend and then I saw this chick sitting there eating eagerly as only a real hungry person knows how to.  So being the sweet and curious person I am, I went to ask her how she was, that she remembered me in a way was kind of kick for my ego.
So this one lady whom she met that night took pity over her and bought her some food. Then as I was talking to the girl the lady came back with a huge pack of pampers and baby formula and a few blankets and clothes. Apparently she had asked the girl to come and help her out at her home in exchange to helping the girl and her baby…
I had forgotten that there are some true angels among us like that lady, and some true devils, like her father.
The only thing I’m struggling with is where I fit in. I’m not exactly an angel, but I’m sure as hell not a devil!!!!!!!!!
The moral of my story is that you are what you choose to be, you could choose to be like her father a big mean nasty white hat wearing idiot or like the lady that made her lifestory better, a angel wearing human clothing.
The choice is still yours.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Beautiful Individual That Can Handle Anything

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs- I am a bitch
When I stand up for those I love-they call me a bitch
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way – they call me a bitch
Being a bitch means I won’t compromise what is in my heart.
It means I live my life my way
It means I won’t allow anyone to step over me.
When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch

The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone’s maid or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and the strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won’t become anyone else’s idea of what they think I should be.
I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.
I am what I am.
I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that.
So try to stomp on me.
Try to douse my inner flame.
Try to squash every ounce of beauty held in me…
YOU WON’T SUCCEED!!!
And if that makes me a bitch then so be it!!!!!

I EMBRACE THE TITLE AND AM PROUD TO BEAR IT!!!!
Love me or hate me!!!

Monday, September 5, 2011

I DON'T OWE YOU JACK

Living in Cape Town has it ups and downs. I'm loving the whole city life especially since I come from a reaally and I mean really ) small town in Namaqualand.

The only real problem I have is the beggars.


I know they are a problem everywhere in the world, but never before in my life had I encountered such arrogant and ungrateful beggars.
I mean if I have nothing I would be satisfied if someone gave me at least a little something.
First case:
My friend and I were walking from Mac d's with a milkshake each. This guy comes running up Kloof Street and ask for a drink. My friend, the good person that she is (bless her) gave him her milkshake even though she hasn’t even drunk half of it.
 "Thank You" he says. Which would be good, but then he turns around and asks me for my milkshake as well...
Well, being me... Of course I told him "No" I mean it's a chocolate milkshake, I do not share chocolate!!!!
Then this guy (who happens to be a coloured guy like me... well I'm a girl) starts yelling at me.
“One of these days you will end up on these streets just like me and then no one will help you. “
Of course I had something to say back to him…
“Well honey that’s why I’m studying, so that I can be stingy and not give a shit”
After that the only come back he had was of course a racial slur, which is what they always go for an effect. Unfortunately for him my brain is wired differently so his “You are mos one of those bananas we have” had no effect on me. Well that and the fact that I had no Idea what he meant with that.
Sometime later I found out from my aunt that he meant I’m one of those banana types’ you know
“Yellow on the outside, but white on the inside”
Lol well that still is funny
To go back to my point where does he get off telling me shit about my milkshake that I bought with my money (well my mom’s hard earned money).
The other thing that these beggars do is get mad at you when you don’t have change.
This one guy saw me buy something in Spar the other day and when I got out of the shop he was standing there. I wanted to do something good for the day so I looked through my purse, but unfortunately I did not have any change. Then he said:
“No I saw them give you change at the till”
And I was like “sure, you want a five cents” and he was like “no man I saw them give you a twenty rand”
Well let’s just say my next works were inappropriate and his reffered to the dirty Afrikaans word for a vagina.
Moral of the story: Whether you give them something or not, whichever way they will find a reason to piss you off....
From now on I'm just going to keep on walking and pretend not to hear what they say.