Happily never after

The first story I remember is the one of Cinderella and how her Prince Charming came to whisk her away and live happpily ever after.
That was just the beginning, after that I was bombarded with stories like Snow White, Rapuntsel, Sleeping Beauty etc. and as I grew older the stories became more soppy more hard to believe, but it always ended with

Always hearing how the hero saves the heroin and takes her off to go live forever more took me into a world of believing that there will be a happy ever after for everyone, but was I rudely awakened by life and the actions of the men of my generation...
Now I can see the truth some author said in one of his books (whose name I cant remember now):
"HAPPILY EVER AFTER IS FOR STORIES THAT HAVEN'T FINISHED YET"

So here I am thinking back at the days I still believed in forever after and happily ever after. And the sad part is that since I started living in the dating world I grew a dislike to forever after. In any case how many people really have forever happily ever after?????Right from the beginning of our dating lives our stories start with pigs and come on you will stop kissing the frogs if the prince don't show his face after a few. But when the frog actually do turn into a human hes usually anything but charming.

It's our knight that comes in shining armani that makes our hearts jump over the moon. From the first time we set eyes on them we adore them and want to please them, but after they get what they want (well enough of what they want) they run of in search of another damstell in distress.
The Prince's and Knights of our generations are not made just for one princess, no way hosey they have to multitask and go to the aid of other women as well.

Thinking back I can't remember any of my friends (or family) whose grandparents have been divorced. They all lived in holy matrimony and got they happily ever after, till death do us apart mumbo jumbo.

 Is it maybe because they respected each other more? Because really some guys I know could go knock at some of the elder peoples doors to get respect lessons. They have the manners of a bull that has a thorn in his hoove. And the worst part is they think it is your fault!

Also they do not value the women like our grandparents, they go through them like I go through underwear. I don't think our grandfathers would give up their girls as easily because they took way too long to get into a girls pants.
And girls whoosh, Yoh I dont think our grandmothers went around asking guys to come do them.
I mean seriosly who would say no to a piece of meat on a silver tray it's like someone giving you tonights winning lotto numbers.
The fact that okes can get a girl with the snap of a finger makes him not work that hard on a relationship, or work at all....  and that makes them definately not marriage material.

But then again I think it's overrated to get married because if the man wants to leave he will leave no matter if you are binded by a ring or just a rent contract. And if he wants to go bone some other chick he will go do it, with the hope of course that you won't find out.
Marriage is a bond between two people promising to foresake all others, and I don't think this generation can do that!!

Now the thing that makes me wonder most is, why do most men go look for greener pastures? Don't they get enough at home?

You can give your man every thing he wants at home,he will still go do that jintoe he just met in the club... The reason? Its the way the mens brain is wired. He is going to cheat, If he hadn't already, that is. They think they have the 'golden banana and have to prove it to their friends ( well not all of them)...

Men just can't keep their forks at home, they have to go stick it in other plates as well, then they want to come back to you and tell you how they prefer your pudding.

Now does that sound any thing like a fairytale to you?

A man is a man and a man will go round!

The only thing us girls can do is hope we find that one guy that will be satisfied with just your pudding..

Ashanti ... A true genius!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you were me, what would you do?
Always a lie, and never the truth.
Now as for me, I’m moving on, but you’ll always be my baby.

Baby, I just got to let you go for now,
thought I could take it for a while, maybe you’ll make it back around.
Baby, I just got to live my life for now,
Can’t see me changing for a while, hope I could make it back around.

Anything that I want I can get it boy, you know you turn me on,
And on that’s why I switch my frame of mind of being there when you call,
I’m always on time.
I’m looking to spread my wings and party, from everything and for everybody,
I need my space, my time alone, its like our hearts don’t match no more.
Still everything that you want you could get it boy, you know I still got love for you;
In court I plea the fifth, my baby.

Baby, I just got to let you go for now,
thought I could take it for a while, maybe you'll make it back around.
Baby, I just got to live my life for now,
Can't see me changing for a while, hope I could make it back around.

When you was cheating, you was probably thinking I won’t sense a thing,
But love got funny way of catching up to lies,
And your lies can’t look me straight in the eyes.
I’m not surprised that you would hurt me baby, but why me baby?
Just let me breathe and I’ll fly free babe.

If you were me, what would you do?
Always a lie, and never the truth.
Now as for me, I’m moving on, but you’ll always be my baby.

Baby, I just got to let you go for now,
thought I could take it for a while, maybe you’ll make it back around.
Baby, I just got to live my life for now,
Can’t see me changing for a while, hope I could make it back around.

Yo, yo…
Why in the world would you wanna leave me girl?
Is there something I did that you feel is better then what’s here at home?
And I know a bitch could do bad on her own.
You’re not alone. The way you hurt me baby,
Shit, why me baby?
I be in pain a little, but I know that love is real and as
Long as it lets you go, you feel the need to come back to me baby,
Who else would hold you and sex you crazy?
R.U.L.E come on back holla at me baby.

Baby, I just got to let you go for now,
thought I could take it for a while, maybe you‘ll make it back around.
Baby, I just got to live my life for now,
Can’t see me changing for a while, hope I could make it back around.

Baby, I just got to let you go for now,
thought I could take it for a while, maybe you‘ll make it back around.
Baby, I just got to live my life for now,
Can’t see me changing for a while, hope I could make it back around.
If you were me, what would you do?
Always a lie, and never the truth.
Now as for me, I’m moving on, but you’ll always be my baby.

Examfever

So there's this bug going around on campus that cause exam fever...
mmmm not something i want, cause its wintertime and I had my fair share of bugs for this winter.
I mean I started the flu season even before the winter came...
So why would I want to get another bug..?

Now you see the problem with that bug is that unlike the flu or any other bugs there are treatments out there that you can use to control the symptoms but with this idiocy of a illness (yes its an illness) is that there are no medicines out there..

The symptoms of the illness is different with everyone, but my problem is not exam fever coz I haven't caught it (even though I'm almost done with the exam). Though  I think I am immune to it seeing that I have never had it in my life..  See my problem with examfever is that it had struck my fellow studymates, they stress and go on about how they prepare and stuff and that's really irritating coz I think I am prepared for the exam and then they start talking about the stuff they learnt the previous day and I just start to lose my confidence.. I go to an exam with confidence that way I dont stress and forget what I learned throughout the year. Now when these fellow students (who I would love to call some Afrikaans words that's not appropriate and refers to a woman's vagina) start with their blabbering I start stressing causing me to panic causing me to forget which will eventually lead me to failure..

 See sometimes I do try to study...

but the thing with that is I fall asleep quickly.

During my school years I was a little leech going around the hostel during exam time talking to my friends about the subject and what we have to know for the exam them teaching me the things I need to know.. (but I kinda always got in trouble with our housemother coz we were spose to sit and study in our rooms)

Then the morning before we write I would go around asking them question to help them remember better, but I was actually helping myself..

Then one sweet day we were writing Life Science (better known as biology) and  as usual I got up to my tricks the day before the exam. But while sitting there writing my brain decided to pull a fast one on me and I could not remember a single thing... all I could remember was the things my friends said about everything except what was in the exam.. I could remember the things they said were wrong but unfortunately it was not a true false questionnaire..... Then today i had a flash of deja vu as I sat there reading through my radio exam paper. But what made this different was that i could have told you exactly what day our lecturer was discussing it and what she was wearing and all that jazz but i could not get the answer I needed to write off the tip of my head.

So now I drawed the conclusion that I really should not be discussing the work before the exams....

And Studying is not a good idea...

Tot later...

So i Have this really cool friend who emails me the most awesome stuff.. well its not that awesome.. And even though I dont know him that well, or he me for that matter he always has that nick to know when i need to be cheered up... or maybe he doesnt know and its just good timing on his side.. but whatever way hes emails always comes at the right time.

So i was kinda going through an emotional rollercoaster this past three weeks stuff were happening that really made me question my life (is still happening i might add) but ill tell all about that later.. promise as for now this is an email my friend send me last week..  tha babies are just the most cutest thing ever... Thanx Colin..

Anger is a condition in which
The tongue works faster than the mind.

You can't change the past,
but you can ruin the present
By worrying over the future
Love...and you shall be loved.
GOD always gives HIS best to those
who leave the choice with HIM.
All people smile in the same language.
Everyone needs to be loved...
especially when they do not deserve it.
The real measure of a man's wealth
is what he has invested in eternity.
Laughter is God's sunshine.
Everyone has beauty
but not everyone sees it.
It's important for parents to live
the same things they teach.
Thank GOD for what you have,
TRUST GOD for what you need.
If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterdayand the worries of tomorrow,
you have no today to be thankful for.
Man looks at outward appearance
but the Lord looks within.

The choice you make today
will usually affect tomorrow.
Take time to laugh, for it is
the music of the soul.
   Patience is the ability to idle your motor
when you feel like stripping your gears.
Love is strengthened by working
through conflicts together.
Harsh words break no bones
but they do break hearts.

To get out of a difficulty,
one usually must go through it.
We take for granted the things
that we should be giving thanks for.
Love is the only thing that can be
divided without being diminished.
 Happiness is enhanced by others
but does not depend upon others. 
For every minute you are angry with someone,
you lose 60 seconds of happiness
that you can never get back.

Do what you can, for who you can,
With what you have, and where you are.

Still hearting life...

Bittersweet..

Fergie said once upon a time that 'big girls don't cry'
i recently found out that that's true...
No matter how much you want to cry and just break down there is this part of you who just don't want to let loose and cry your heart out... Even when i am actually crying there's this part of me that still holds back, preventing me from breaking free and sobbing my heart out. I wonder what triggered that??
Is it the urge not to be pitied by people coz that is one thing i hate, people feeling sorry for me...
And people telling you everything will get better when your world has crushed, seriously don't they know that you do know that but you just want to let out some of the pain you are feeling inside... And then worst of all - 'i know what you are going through'.. Seriously no one knows what i am feeling.
People are so irritating when you just want to mourn something, they are all up in your business...  so when we say Big girls don't cry we mean big girls don't cry where people can see.
They just don't like everybody being up in their business...


Tot later...

The lost ones

I now know u are really gone....

I call but you dont pick up your phone...

I sms but no one replies....

You never on mxit anymore...

Your facebook wall is full off messages from people who are missing you...

They all lost you on saturday..

But i lost you more than three years ago...

I am not suppose to be sad, coz you were no longer a part of my life..

I am not suppose to cry because we already said goodbye...

But why does it feel like someone punched a hole in my heart???

Y do i find it hard to breathe??

Y do i wake up in the middle of the night with tears in my eyes???

Is it because i think you were to young to die???

Or maybe because i thought the world hass so much more to offer to you???

Or maybe its because i am selfish....

Wanting to keep you here cause where else would i find another friend as wonderful as you?????

My life feels empty without you...
But knowing you i know you would have told me to get over it and go buy a dop...

So heres a toast to you.